I look at you, tired, dazed and confused. You look back at me, your eyes are red and your lips are firing sharp words. You throw your wrist watch at me, the same watch I gifted you on your birthday. It hits me hard in the head and I am bleeding, but I dont move an inch. My eyes are still rooted on your lips. I cant read you anymore. Falling in love, so easy, falling out of it, so bloody difficult. You are walking away, and I cant stop you. Why?

It hurts, hurts badly, I cry like a baby, no one to talk to, no shoulder to lean upon. I lay in my bed, staring at the ceiling, my eyes wet. My heart beats faster than usual, the loud thump of it against the ribs is driving me crazy. Take your time, get over it, I tell myself.

I close my eyes, the fragments from the past are taking over me. The time when I kissed your wet lips in the rain. When you held my hand and showed me the correct path. The warmth of your hugs and the gentle touch of your hands. You taught me to fall in love, and now I cant get out of it.

My college canteen, we use to lunch together, same plate, same straw, so much for the love. I grab a bench, my trembling hand moves to grab the fries, cant eat them, appetite dead. She walks in, the same smile that I adored so much. The smile’s not for me. A hand around her waist. She leans on his chest, says something, cant hear her. Probably making the same promises we made a couple of months back. No food for me today, time to let those emotions take over.

My head is heavy and the wound wont heal. All that is left of you are the fond memories of us.You have captured my mind, soul and body and I cant break out of those shackles. Its ironic how those moments that we laughed heartily, are now making me cry. One summer life is so perfect and the very next so messed up. My broken heart is beyond repair. But I have learnt to cry underneath the smile. And I have learnt to live with those memories and invisible tears.