Pieces of My Broken Heart

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I look at you, tired, dazed and confused. You look back at me, your eyes are red and your lips are firing sharp words. You throw your wrist watch at me, the same watch I gifted you on your birthday. It hits me hard in the head and I am bleeding, but I dont move an inch. My eyes are still rooted on your lips. I cant read you anymore. Falling in love, so easy, falling out of it, so bloody difficult. You are walking away, and I cant stop you. Why?

It hurts, hurts badly, I cry like a baby, no one to talk to, no shoulder to lean upon. I lay in my bed, staring at the ceiling, my eyes wet. My heart beats faster than usual, the loud thump of it against the ribs is driving me crazy. Take your time, get over it, I tell myself.

I close my eyes, the fragments from the past are taking over me. The time when I kissed your wet lips in the rain. When you held my hand and showed me the correct path. The warmth of your hugs and the gentle touch of your hands. You taught me to fall in love, and now I cant get out of it.

My college canteen, we use to lunch together, same plate, same straw, so much for the love. I grab a bench, my trembling hand moves to grab the fries, cant eat them, appetite dead. She walks in, the same smile that I adored so much. The smile’s not for me. A hand around her waist. She leans on his chest, says something, cant hear her. Probably making the same promises we made a couple of months back. No food for me today, time to let those emotions take over.

My head is heavy and the wound wont heal. All that is left of you are the fond memories of us.You have captured my mind, soul and body and I cant break out of those shackles. Its ironic how those moments that we laughed heartily, are now making me cry. One summer life is so perfect and the very next so messed up. My broken heart is beyond repair. But I have learnt to cry underneath the smile. And I have learnt to live with those memories and invisible tears.

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A Kiss in the Rain

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She sits at a distance, her eyes gazing into the endless sea. Some thoughts are running through her head. The cool breeze blows smoothly through her hair bringing the celestial scent of them towards me. Waves after waves keep clashing against the rocks, but even they fail to distract her thoughts.

“It’s going to rain.” I break the silence.

A Kiss in the Rain

She looks at me, biting her lips but does not say a word. An awkward silence follows. I look back into the sea, and then deep within myself. How do I tell you? I am so scared of losing you.

My heartbeat’s pacing and I want it to stop for a moment.

Take a deep breath, mutter some courage, and say it, I tell myself.

“How long are you going to sit that far from me?” I say.

She looks at me now, a smile spread across her face, “I thought you did never ask.”

She moves slowly towards me, I open my arms as she slides in. She rests her head on my shoulder and I close my arms around her. A warm feeling rushes inside me, “I don’t want you to go.” I whisper.

“Shss!!” She checks my lips with her finger. “Don’t say anything. Just hold me like you would never want me to go.”

It’s started to drizzle now and the wind’s blowing hard into us. The clouds burst into continuous thunder. “You are safe with me sweetheart.” I hold her tightly in my arms, separating her from the outer world.

She looks at me like a confused soul and slowly closes her eyes. Her lips are wet and the wind has blown her hair across her face. I gently brush them behind her ears.

It’s getting colder and the sight of her trembling wet lips is more than I can take. I kiss her gently now holding her like I did never want her to go. Her lips are pressing harder against mine as she holds on tightly to my collar. The moment passes by as quickly as it came. She opens her eyes slowly.

I look deep into her, “I love you.” She doesn’t respond. Her eyes staring into mine. She pulls me back in and we kiss again. The rain’s at its best pace, wetting us thoroughly. The waves crashing harder into the rocks and making a loud crackling noise. “I love you,” I whisper again.
“You know I won’t be here to love you back.” She responds finally.

“Then don’t go. We are so good together and I will love you till eternity. That sweet smile on your face, I will never let fade. And I will protect it for the rest of my life. Please don’t go.”

“You are making it harder for me. You know I cannot stay. I have to go.” She makes some distance and walks slowly away from me.

“Then I will wait for you till you love me back the way I do. I promise.” She turns around for a final look but fails to notice my tears in the heavy rain.

“I promise.” I whisper.

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